Tuesday, September 9, 2008,12:51 AM

"WHAT??NO LAHHH"

Haha. I don't have a boyfriend. Silly questions.

It's really tough to find someone who's not a jerk and gives in to every whim I have. And when I thought I might've gotten a few candidates, they end up being either too... or too... . You know. I believe I do have lots of experiences (to which all ended up pretty badly). So which was the worse? I don't know. Come to think of it, the one I got involved with the married dude seems quite galvanizing now that I recall. Yeah, it's that awesome. But that doesn't count. I only recently found out he's got a kid.

The worst's gotta be Leo. He might've not been an actual boyfriend, but the feeling was there, and it was mutual. How many of you actually get to experience the death of a loved one, the death being so impetuous, so dire. Even now, I still feel much inequity to why someone so loved can be taken away and cause so much catastrophe in my life.

They say, "Time will heal."

But has it? One week and one day more. Then it'll be 6 years since that fateful day. I've never stopped yearning for him to come back.

nat*Rockin